"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."

Friday, July 31, 2009

Happy 3 months! 7/16

Danika! Your 3 months old today, what are you up to these days?
Your check up was on 7/23 and your WT is 11 lbs 10 1/2 oz, your HT is 23" and
your HC is 15 1/2
You wear a size 1-2 diaper and starting to fit into 3-6 months clothes they are still a little big but you still have so many 0-3 sizes you have not worn yet!
On 7/3 you had to have a ultrasound on your hips because of your frank breech position and the doctor felt a very slight clicking on your left hip after you were born. At your check ups it was never a concern, it is just standard to get the sono done. Of coarse everything turned out fine and you are perfect!
You had your first ride in a shopping cart without your stroller and it was very bumpy. You have been using your Bumbo seat for a while and you wonder how come I am not holding you. I also got you some Lamaze toys and you love them. Those dolls come everywhere with us. You love to eat them, just like your little fist.
This month we missed daddy alot. He had to go away the day before your 3 month birthday for 5 days to Hawaii to visit his mother. She came to visit us for a week in May and has fallen very, very ill and it was his turn to visit her. We missed him but glad he got to visit her. We just wish we were able to go with him. But we got to celebrate his return home with his favorite ice cream cake.





Happy 2 months 6/16

Danika! Your 2 months old today, what are you up to these days?

Your check up was on 6/23 and your WT is 9 lbs 12 oz (25%), and your HT is 21 3/4 (25%) and your HC is 14 3/4 (10%)

You can wear 0-3 month clothes, but I still am sad you are growing out of your newborn clothes! There are just so cute and small. After all of your newborn diapers are gone we are going to start you in size one diapers. The newborn size are starting to leave markes around your legs.

The end of May you gave us a scare because you came down with your first little minor cold/congestion. A few weeks later you also were a little constipated.

Your had your first sleep over at grandma & grandpas house all week with us but they were away. You are still a night owl and don't fall asleep on your own. Sometimes it feels like you didn't nap all day and sometimes you nap all day and are up all night. I guess I spoil you because I want to spend all the time your awake with you. I love it when you fall asleep in my arms. Sometimes when I go to put you down you wake up and cry so we have to start all over again. But again I am eating up every minute of it!





















Thursday, July 30, 2009

Happy 1 month! 5/16

Danika! Your one month old today, what are you up to these days?
You still sleep and eat alot during the day, but you don't go to bed untill about 3-4am. I am afraid you have my bad sleeping habits. You have been to the doctor and to grandmas a few times and are good in the car and enjoy walks in your stroller. Your one month check up was on 5/21 and your WT. is 8 lbs (25%), your HT is 21 1/2 (70%) and your HC is 14 1/8 (15%)
Oh and I just love the way your head smells like brand new baby that I didn't want it to wash away but yes I have bathed you!
And you are the cutest when you sleep with your little arms up above your head!I am so happy to celebrate my first mothers day with you and many more to come.
I can't believe your newborn clothes are still a little big on you. Soon you will grow into them just as fast as you will grow out of them! I am amazed at how different you look everyday, your changing so much.























One week old 4/23

Danika! Your one week old! What are you up to these days?

You were born on 4/16 at 10:02am, weighing in at 5 lbs. and 15 1/2 oz, 19 inches long and your head circumference is 13''

We went home with you on 4/20 and your weight was 5 lbs 8 1/2 oz

Your first doctors visit was on 4/22 and you weighed 5 lbs. 11 oz and still 19 inches long we had to take you back a week later for a weight check and you were 6 lbs 5 1/2 oz

You sleep and eat alot and grandma had her first sleep over with us.

4/23 was also mommys 31st birthday and Aunt Tricia & Aunt Melissa came over for a visit.

We were just talking about your umbilical cord, when Aunt Tricia went to change you and discovered that it had fallen off! I was surprised and happy it was so quick because it was bothering me.

You also had your first taste of vitamins and you didn't like it at all!

We are home!

I love those skinny, wrinkly, strechy arms and legs.







Hey there, who are you? You smell familiar.










Abby even got her own baby blanket to love on.

Soon headed for home

This is my all time favorite picture. I took it with my camera phone. I loved seeing this little face when I awoke every morning. I wonder what she was thinking? Just laying there like a little burrito in her plastic bin/cart/bed thingy on wheels! My little round head. It makes me cry because I just can't get over this face.


Another angle


The nurse gave Paul yet another tattoo (like he needs any more) of her feet! Again I can't believe the date stamp is all wrong. In April 2008 we were planning our wedding!

Check out the ''baby lo jack" that gets clamped to her umbilical cord stump. Its a great idea for security but what a pain to handle her with. I was afraid it was going to take her whole belly button off!


Doesn't she look just like a little doll?
Finally we are dressed in our own clothes! Next time I will remember that I can change into my own pj's and dress up my baby, so we don't have to wear the same ugly gown and baby tee shirt as every other patient in the hospital. But I did have the nurses use our receiving blankets so its easy to spot her in the nursery. Its a good idea and I heard other moms say they wish they did that to when visiting thier babys in the nursery. Wait did I just say NEXT TIME?!?!




Daddy buckling her in her seat for the first time.


I was so happy because I had to get wheeled out by a nurse and only I was allowed to hold Danika. Not Paul! So I took my baby and left, with Paul behind carring the bags.I just felt so proud, after everything we made it ok and can finally go home.



Her first car ride going home. I dreamed of sitting in the back seat with her for the first time. It was raining that day.
























Visitors galore!!!

We are so happy and grateful to have such wonderful, loving and supporting family and friends. Everyone basically came everyday to see us. Here are just a few pictures of our visitors and many are missing. We also had cousin Joannie come by and a bunch of my mothers friends. At one point there was up to 8 people in the room at one time! Of coarse always the nurses and staff checking up on me and taking my vitals. I admit I did get very overwhelmed and forgot to get thier pictures. At least my roomate was discharged after 2 days so we had the whole room to ourselves and was able to make lots of noise. After the first picture the rest of the date stamps are correct but the year is still wrong, I believe.
Grandma Donna<
Grandpa Tom

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Grandma Fran

Big Brother Jaymz

Uncle Ricky, Aunt Laura, Ian & Kira
Cousin Ian & Kira
Uncle Jimmy & Aunt Marian
Aunt Tricia & Uncle Scott
Aunt Melissa & Uncle Todd
But not everyone was able to make it to the hospital. Pauls mother, Grandma Cherly came in all the way from Hawaii to stay with us at our home! Aunt Kristi also stopped by. We also had a bunch of my mothers friends and cousin Joannie visit us in the hospital as well.
I understand it takes alot out of the person in the hospital, but it can also take alot out of our loved ones that visit us in the hospital and for that I thank you all.


Our second stay in the hospital

was alot different then the first time (then again, now everything is alot different) It was not just about me anymore! While I was getting settled in my room and the baby was in the nursery getting a bath and warmed up, my mom said she stayed by the window and watched her for the full 3 hours! Too bad she didn't take any pictures. Also Paul was not able to take pictures in the actual OR or cut the cord, but he did get these picture when they were wheeling her out of the OR. And yes the date stamp on photos is still wrong! It should read 4/16/09

So after I was settled in my room Paul and baby were allowed to come in next. Again I was still very much out of it and tired and groggy and I see that tall image holding a bundle of blankets at the foot of my bed. He asked me to hold her and I said not right now, I was to drowsey and didn't feel like myself and I admit I just didn't feel ready. I felt like I would of dropped her off the side of because I was still half asleep.
But of coarse he just put her in my arms and I instantly woke up, I had to for her.







That can't be comforatble

My doctor said that just because I had this surgery didn't mean I couldn't have a natural childbirth. But after getting our first 3D scan on Valentines day, I had a feeling that is not how it would happen. Her foot was in her face!!! And little miss stubborn didn't move at all!! I guess she wanted to take the ''easy'' way and be air lifted out of me instead of traveling through that narrow canal. Oh well back in for another surgery, at least for my first one I was put to sleep, but then woke up in ALOT of pain.But for the actual birth it really hit me when I walked into the operating room but realized this time around the doctors would be removing a real human being, that was all mine forever! That is what freaked me out the most and also fear of what if she was sick. Seeing the heating lamps under the baby bed cart and the incuabtor in case there was any problems got me really scared. There is no backsies and no turning back now my time has come. After getting the needle in my back, being strapped down not being able to feel/move my legs/arms I got very antsy and restless. I could only move my head a little. It felt like forever lying there. A mixture of not getting enough sleep and the needle made me very tired but I do remember finally Paul coming in but he was not able to sit as close to me as I thought he would. I remember the anastesialogist telling him I was just starting to get restless but that I was doing ok. Now I know there is no real pain with a c-section like there is natural childbirth, I have heard about the feeling of pressure and some pulling and tugging, but I didn't even want to feel what that was like! And I already had a vertical scar that was going to be cut over again but closed up in a way that would minimize scarring. (But please that is a whole other story, I won't even go there!)And so my eyes closed and I went to sleep. Next thing I know I hear the sounds of a baby crying and Paul talking to a nurse about her. I somewhat open my eyes and I see this tall blue image (Paul wearing the hospital scrubs) cradling a bundle of blankets with the biggest Kool Aide smile I have ever seen taking up his whole face. I quickly closed my eyes again but after he had to give her back to the nurse she brought her over to me and asked if I wanted to kiss her. I did and went back to sleep.Next thing I remember is being wheeled around the hospital, going in an elevator and being swung into a room to recover and wait for my room. I was not allowed to go to my room until I was able to move my legs and that took a while it seemed like. I remember my friend Tricia came in with my mom and telling my that the babys color and everything looked perfect. I was happy but so out of it. But I am happy that I didn't wake up in pain, like my first operation, but I believe it was because this time I finally had my baby!

Our first stay in the hospital

was when I was 16 weeks pregnant. After going to my first sonogram appointment at 10 weeks a cyst was discovered on my right ovary. It can be common but this one was not going away. In risk of the cyst twisting from lack of space and possibly cutting off blood supply to baby I had it removed in my 19th week right before thanksgiving. Mom and baby recovered just fine and my little one continued to grow and develop inside undisturbed!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Never in my wildest dreams

I would have thought that the guy I obsessed over in high school would one day like me back. That day came many, many years later we met up again and I was not going to let him go. After that my life finally stared to fall into place. After dating for a year, engaged for 10 months,





married for 2 months




and here is the best part... expecting!!




We didn't waste any time, ha, no really we probably would've liked to have been married for at least a year, travel more but I guess it was time to start growing our family! It is so crazy to think that when my friends and family were planning my baby shower, they were doing the same thing exactly a year prior for my bridal shower!
I believe you can never really "plan" for a child because anything is possible. You will always need more money, more space, more time, but you can never run out of love and happiness you can feel for your child.



Yes I know the date stamp is wrong on that last photo. That is in front of the hospital on the morning of my c-section. The date stamp should read 4/16/09. We didn't realize it was wrong untill a few days later, so the first few dates are off.